Sunday, 23 Feb 08
10:03pm
Thanks, I will try not to sleep in class but sometimes i just dont have the choice. sighs.
<3
My ballet yesterday was a disaster. Someone please save my toes. i forgot to tape my toes before class. And my teacher did pointe work first before the rest of the exercises, bcos normally pointe work is the last section of class. So thanks to my forgetfulness to tape my toes, i had terrible in the middle of the exercises. I was bearing with the pain during centre pointe work. I can feel tmy skin peeling off, rubbing against the interior of my ballet shoes, have blisters.
I took off my pointe shoes after that, and realised that my toes had bled. it soaked through my tights. i checked the interior of my pionte shoes, and realised that my blood had strained inside too. looking and thinking of it, i almost teared. As i put on my soft pointe shoes, my toes hurt inside. When i stand up, it stung. As i even walked, i felt the excruciating pain that went up and pricked through my heart. I have no choice, but to carry on with the lesson. When i rise up on demi-pointe, i could feel my toes, being squished up as the blood stained through onto the interior of my shoes. I beared with the pain, using my endurance. I know that if i break down, i will never going to get thorugh the pain in the exam room.
And so i came back home yesterday and went to bathe. I cried in the bathroom, while the open wounds got in contact with the water. the pain was indescrible. this is the worst wound i ever got on my toes after doing pointe work. i guess i had pushed myself too hard on pointe. But i just want to strenghten my pointe and i dont have much time left.
At least i survived today, after having ballet again, remembering to plaster my toes(first layer) and tape toes(second layer). though i couldnt do much rises on demi-pointe, i tried my best to ignore the pain and did all the rises and releves, pirouettes en dedans and en dehors, center pointe, allegros and blah.
EMO. :(
10:03pm
Thanks, I will try not to sleep in class but sometimes i just dont have the choice. sighs.
<3
My ballet yesterday was a disaster. Someone please save my toes. i forgot to tape my toes before class. And my teacher did pointe work first before the rest of the exercises, bcos normally pointe work is the last section of class. So thanks to my forgetfulness to tape my toes, i had terrible in the middle of the exercises. I was bearing with the pain during centre pointe work. I can feel tmy skin peeling off, rubbing against the interior of my ballet shoes, have blisters.
I took off my pointe shoes after that, and realised that my toes had bled. it soaked through my tights. i checked the interior of my pionte shoes, and realised that my blood had strained inside too. looking and thinking of it, i almost teared. As i put on my soft pointe shoes, my toes hurt inside. When i stand up, it stung. As i even walked, i felt the excruciating pain that went up and pricked through my heart. I have no choice, but to carry on with the lesson. When i rise up on demi-pointe, i could feel my toes, being squished up as the blood stained through onto the interior of my shoes. I beared with the pain, using my endurance. I know that if i break down, i will never going to get thorugh the pain in the exam room.
And so i came back home yesterday and went to bathe. I cried in the bathroom, while the open wounds got in contact with the water. the pain was indescrible. this is the worst wound i ever got on my toes after doing pointe work. i guess i had pushed myself too hard on pointe. But i just want to strenghten my pointe and i dont have much time left.
At least i survived today, after having ballet again, remembering to plaster my toes(first layer) and tape toes(second layer). though i couldnt do much rises on demi-pointe, i tried my best to ignore the pain and did all the rises and releves, pirouettes en dedans and en dehors, center pointe, allegros and blah.
EMO. :(