Sunday, 31 Aug 08
11.36pm

Gone through 3 days of confusion,
Gone through 3 days, living in self-denial.
How long do i have to lie to myself?
How long do i have to speculate, and give a benefit of doubt?
How long do i have to pretend, and pretend everything is alright?

Memories of the past just flash through my mind,
and it hurts to think of them every now and then.
How long do i have to stop them from coming in?
How long do i have to stop worrying over this?
just How long do i have to stop lying to myself that everything is going fine?

It feels empty. everything is screwed.
It feels hurt. my studies,
It feels unprotected. my relationship,
It feels wobbly. my life.
It feels insecure. why cant they be smooth-sailing,
It feels tired. even for just ONCE?
It feels unsure. if you have not changed,
It feels weak. i wont be suffering like now.
cant you stop freaking hurt me?
It's my heart; i wanna treat you as a stranger to me~